hopelessness.

i just feel very down now :( i know i'm a whinger, and I never get anything done ...

i actually finished 2 things on my to do list for today, but the other two are massive tasks which seem like i can never finish. maybe i should go to bed early today (early as in 12 early) and get up earlier and hope i feel better so i can get some work done.

i feel so hopeless at everything ... like for maths, when i look back at the stuff we've done or if someone asks me how to do a question that I'VE DONE ALREADY i don't even remember how to do it. and now for trials you're telling me to recall everything ... everything.

and my english essays are still untouched ... i feel so unmotivated sometimes i wonder whether i'm the only one at this particular minute who isn't working and rather, just lounging about on youtube ...

and i'm probably going to fail the UMAT or something, i'm just so bad with time management i'm far from the end of the exam when 3 hours is up. omg what am i going to, i don't even know 100% what i'm going to do in university and i looked at the university scholarship forms and there's a lot to fill out ... i need to think carefully ... but i can't ...

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my entire holidays wasted ... again

and this is the holidays before trials.

seriously, jennifer? you haven't found your second belonging related OR a single related text for history and memory. you haven't done any practise exams, fixed your essays or anything.

and the trials are in four weeks.

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blogspot just got cooler

so today was the LAST DAY of my exams! so happy :) and when I asked my friends while they were studying for their french exam, I realised that they blogged here ... and I have now rediscovered this blog :D (technically I did a week ago ... but oh well. alteration of facts for dramatic purposes!) and so I am now following them. and a few other people who were following THEM/they were following.

oh dear I need to eat dinner now. and i was going to write a bit on how hungry I was. sigh.

ok this is tomorrow :D how paradoxical. so I just wanted to say hi to Linda, Horizon and Rochelle who pulled me back to this account ... hello -bow-. and now i should finish doing my work on the effects of farming on the nitrogen cycle, my trigonometry homework and other english stuff.

surprisingly, i have procrastinated the entire of today :'(